Im 30 weeks pregnant today. I can’t believe there is only about 10 weeks to go till I meet my baby. Theres something about going from the 20 odd weeks to the 30 odd weeks that seem to make it feel very close. Id be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. Im not sure I’m prepared enough.
I know I’ve done it all before but part of whats scaring me is just that, I’ve done this before and nothing went to plan or went how I would have chose. I came out the other side of child birth last time pretty adamant I wasn’t going to put myself through it again.
But then as time passed and I’ve either forgotten or gotten over the worst of it I realised it was all worth it. Sofia is the best thing in my life and id go through it all again for her so I assume I will feel the same way this time round given a bit of time and distance from the actual event after. It will just be another chapter I can close off and forget about and have another beautiful daughter in my life.
But I’m not at that point yet, I’ve still got the labour part to come, so I’m scared.
I’m feeling awfully tired at the moment, its been this way the whole pregnancy really, ever since I found out I was pregnant. I really would have just hibernated this whole pregnancy if I could have. As it turns out 2 year olds don’t really understand that mummy is tired because she is creating a human and I can’t do as much as I used to, so that has been hard. Its not all bad, I did have about 2 weeks in the middle of my pregnancy where I felt I was getting my energy back!
Im extremely lucky that in my last pregnancy I never got any stretch marks. Theres still none cropping up but the bigger I get the more nervous I am that I won’t be so lucky this time round. I know theres nothing wrong with having stretch marks but if there was a choice id happily pass on them, its just one more thing you have to get used to about your “new body” after having a baby.
I really don’t want to jinx it but I think I’m finally getting better! Im still bit sniffily and have a lingering cough but for the past couple of days I’ve felt so much better in myself. So I think I’m on the mend!